Thought I'd explain some shit...

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Okay, my hiatus is really showing no signs of coming to an end. Things just keep piling on to mountain of crap I've already got. I'm in the midst of trying to find an apartment, which is going to be improbable now because my hours have been severely cut. I think I need to find a new job. I wish there was just a way to ditch these terrible retail jobs and just make a living as an artist. Sadly I don't think that will happen. I've all but given up hope on that.

The future of my art is still very clouded. Things aren't really improving. To top it off, my health isn't the greatest. I hit 360 lbs (163.2 KG or 25.7 stone), my LDL (bad cholesterol) is high and my HDL (good cholesterol) is low. I have high liver enzymes, but that runs in my family, as well as a low red blood cell count possible caused by iron deficiency. I'm feeling more like an 80-year-old than a 30-year-old. Yes, I'm sensitive about my weight but who isn't? I could be a jolly fat guy but yeah, I don't even want to be a fat guy. "I'm eat because I'm unhappy! I'm unhappy because I eat..." as Fat Bastard said... I'm also on the brink of being put on anti-depressants. Yay happy pills.

These down periods are getting old... and I'm really getting tired of them. People are telling me that if you aren't happy about the way things are going, only you can change it. I wish I knew how to change it... One thing is for certain, this shit isn't working.
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NeroUrsus's avatar
Cut one bad thing from your diet and you'll see positive results. I still manage to eat well, but I cut out orange juice because it's full of sugar and I used to guzzle it. In a month I lost 5kg. Just from drinking water instead of juice. Start with one small thing and the results will motivate you to make bigger changes.